Bittersweet Life...

Sunday, August 07, 2005

did CIP at aljunied.... at a home.. tot it would be boring, but turned out to be fun... the guys went crazy and created a video clip.. haha.. had fun ppl.. thanks for all the laughters.

overnited at siglap on fri nite... was kinda fun i must say.. but i was kinda lonely la... went hyper solo.. w/o my sidekick ad.. anyway, went out for dinner with the peeps... persuaded jackson to buy for me haagen daz... muahahha.. and he did! how nice of him.. thank u dearie... ;)

went back to sch.. slack.. then, discussed stuff for games day sometime after midnite... slept in the hall with some of the sec 3 boys and the rest of the CIs... it was like pure air con in the hall when all the fans are on full blast... woke up at 6, cadets have already arrived... damn. they're too early man... but, well, wat to do. coz they're very enthu... at 6 in the morn, ais, farz and me wenta bath... got ready for games dae...

i refreed captain's ball for girls.. n, trust me.. it aint as ez as it looked...

to cut it short, siglap did win some games.. cant remember exactly.. tough fite for the champion/ challenge trophy with eastview. in the end, both schs were tied... hehe.. so, this yr champs are siglap and eastview. but heck, siglap won three yrs consecutively. so, gd job, my dearest cadets.. proud of u guys... im glad tt u guys put in lots of effort. well done! to other area 8 units, good job to u guys too... it was a tough comp between all units.. see ya next yr! =)

smart me forgot to bring back my hp charger... so, now till tmr nite when i get it back frm ais, im onli left with 3 bars... haiz...

i was appalled... taken aback... shocked.. by the news i got. well.. it was totally unexpected. i didnt noe how to react when she told. didnt noe whether to be angry or cry. didnt noe whether to laugh or jump ard. i noe i didnt blog this down earlier... but i really wanted to get him back. i guess it's all too late.. it was all my fault anyway. i couldnt commit... so, i guess, i was to blame.. and i shouldnt feel remorse or anything, should i? i had no idea this would happen.. tt's y i tot i had all the time in the world to wait... to sort things out.. to get him back in time to come.

"i still like u. i still love u. a lot. I should have held on tight. I never should've let you go. I didn't know nothing. I was stupid. I was foolish. I was lying to myself. i've been meaning to talk to you. i had no idea this would have happened. i didnt see it coming. damn. nobody did. i had no idea u would have move on so fast. tt fast. but lately, i realised i really need someone. i need u. but, i had already let u go, and i didnt dare to turn back and reach out for u again. i was lost. I lost a part of me when i let u go. but it's all too late now. "

mariah carey's "we belong together" never meant so much to me b4, till yesterday.

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

'Cause I didn't know you
'Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby

When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody there
We belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

Smashed into pieces at 8/07/2005 09:40:00 PM